I allowed you to become everything my world revolved around. I believed the gravity between us was strong enough to continue our orbit around one another, despite the debris we would encounter along the way.

I allowed myself to be completely yours. I gave everything I had to you. I lowered every piece of defence I had built up until that time, and placed every vulnerability I had into your arms. I trusted you with every part of me.

I allowed every moment to be either time with you, or time where I wanted to be with you. No other status existed for me. You were on my mind every second of every hour. You still are.

You told me you loved me even as I walked away. I could still see it in your eyes, despite you not being able to look at me. We both have demons. Together, they were more than the sum of their parts. But, you still love me, so maybe there is hope.

I allowed you to become my purpose. I allowed myself to fall into your beauty and accept you completely. But, I also allowed my demons to attack you and to encourage yours to pull you away.

You told me of the guilt you felt because you were unable to give me more. But what you never understood is that, even with less, it is still only you I ever wanted.

I allowed you to become my gravity. And now my gravity has gone. From the moment I left your orbit I have been unable to see what is ahead. Every part of my future has changed within a matter of days. You had talked about “our future”. I hope that we might have the chance to have one again.